My mother's day letter to my real mom, in Mississippi. Fuck, i miss her so much.
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Dear Mom,
Happy Mother’s Day! You know, this is the first time I’ve ever sent you a letter. Isn’t it great!? There is a big thing I want to talk about, but that part will come later. I just want to let you know that I appreciate all the care you’ve given to me and how you loved me like you still do today. I really miss you so much. I just can’t wait till I see you during the summer. A lot has been going on over here. I really wish you were here to help me. Let me get started on what’s up.
Friday, May 6th 11:17pm.- I just got home from hanging out with my good friends. Yeah, I had a great time. But something bad happened when I got home. I went to the store after school to buy plates, forks, and this Special Card for you. When I was home, Dad called me and told me to mow the lawn. I asked him , “Can I go out for the night if I get it done?” And he said, “If you don’t cut the grass, then you don’t go.” Well, I took that in a smart way and figured it out. “If I cut the grass, then I can go.” Doesn’t that make sense, Mom? Well, I just got done cutting and my friend drove by and waited for me. When I went to clean up, I saw Ba and Di Oanh get home, and Dad said I did really well. So I thought that I reward myself to a night of hanging out with my friends, which I haven’t done in such a long time. Before I left, I could not find my cell phone. It was missing. I didn’t know where it was. I knew that it was in the kitchen when I picked Jason up. Well, 30 minutes later, I left the house and went without my phone.
When I got home, I knew that the phone was around in the kitchen. I called the cell and I heard it vibrate (shake). I looked for it and Di Oanh asked what I was doing. Well I told her that I was looking for my phone. She asked me where is it? And I said in the basement., but I wasn’t sure. 15 minutes later, I found it in the corner of the cabinet, WAY in the back of the corner. Well my dad asked if a ghost put in there, but I said, “No, it was you, Dad.” Then he got all mad at me, for some reason that I don’t know. Then went down to the living room and my dad almost knocked me over the stairs with his warmer thingy. When I got down stairs, Di Oanh told me to give her the phone, but I asked Why?. Then she gets all mad at me and I gave it to her. Then I went into the basement and closed the door, but it closed loud. I didn’t want it to close loud, but she came running into the basement and I ran to the bathroom. Then she started yelling at me and almost knocked the door down.. I called Grandma from the house phone and she was mad at me as well. Di Oanh told her all these lies about me and I cried. I cried so hard that I wanted to rip my heart out, Mom. It hurt so bad because I could not believe that she would say such a thing.. And now, Grandma doesn’t believe me and it makes me feel like that I want to die, Mom. I can’t stand much of these lies much longer. I feel like my future just ended right there, Mom. I’m not good enough for them.
There’s not much going on here other than that. It’s so hard here. Well, I’ve been staying at school doing work after school. Haven’t been with friends much lately, oh say for many, many weeks. It’s 2 in the morning as I type this into the computer. Parents upstairs are still mad at me. It’s terrible. I just can’t wait till I move over there, but that won’t be for a long time. I didn’t do anything wrong here, Mom. They took my cell phone away for stupid lies that they made up. This isn’t right. I know this supposed to be a happy letter, but this is what I want to tell you.
Well, I haven to go, so write me back! Or e-mail me back. Bye! I love you so much!!!
Your greatest, hardworking son,
Steven Nguyen
